Well today is a new day. Last night was a a disaster don't you just hate that one person who can send you in a tail spin. Yeah it happened last night. For me its this guy who I convinced myself I fell in love with, to say the least I thought he was the one clearly wrong. I miss him sometimes and think about his face, I thought he was different once again really wrong. He has a new girlfriend he described her as "special" before that really sent me down. Why is she "special" and I'm not, what makes her sooooo awesome???  I pretty much stopped talking to him altogether to avoid nights like this, but it still doesn't help. Ugh. I pretty much mask the pain with a lot of alcohol and using random fraternity boys to make out with. Yeah it doesn't work so don't bother. Yeah I say I'm over it but clearly am not. It totally sucks having your heart crushed. Men suck. I'm hoping for an awesome day pretty much using the motto expect the worst so you can never be disappointed. Xoxoxo