We meet again... Under the strangest circumstances. After months of not blogging, I stumbled upon my old blog. Well since my last post nothing has really changed. It's funny how one minute you can be so happy and the next you are just back to square one. I need to get past this adversity soon, or I think something might happen. I'm soooo sad, I feel like all my friends are advancing in their lives and making all of these great contributions to society. What am I doing? Absolutely nothing, I just can't cope anymore, everyone was such great things happening and nothing is happening to me. I feel like I'm dying. Thanks for listening Xoxoxo.

Well today is a new day. Last night was a a disaster don't you just hate that one person who can send you in a tail spin. Yeah it happened last night. For me its this guy who I convinced myself I fell in love with, to say the least I thought he was the one clearly wrong. I miss him sometimes and think about his face, I thought he was different once again really wrong. He has a new girlfriend he described her as "special" before that really sent me down. Why is she "special" and I'm not, what makes her sooooo awesome???  I pretty much stopped talking to him altogether to avoid nights like this, but it still doesn't help. Ugh. I pretty much mask the pain with a lot of alcohol and using random fraternity boys to make out with. Yeah it doesn't work so don't bother. Yeah I say I'm over it but clearly am not. It totally sucks having your heart crushed. Men suck. I'm hoping for an awesome day pretty much using the motto expect the worst so you can never be disappointed. Xoxoxo

Today is a new day?? Right, or is it the same old day that we have always been accustomed to. Well whatever day it is I should have fresh new outlook on life and I’m really trying but its soooo hard when you get dealt a really shitty deck of cards. Everything that wasn’t supposed to happen this summer did. Let’s see I made new friends when in reality I wasn’t going to have any fun, and lock myself in my dungeon all summer long (we all know that didn’t happen). I dated someone he wasn’t that bad except my roommates didn’t love him to say the least and were gunning for him from the beginning.  I fell in love love with a tool who was pretty much a wolf in sheep’s clothing, and pretty much where all my emotional problems are stemming from I know he’s happy, so why can’t I be??? My plans for today include a little STD action: shots, tanning, and drinking, a lot of TV on an injured foot you pretty much have a death sentence in the social circle, so even though I feel really crappy I won’t kill my rep. Until we meet again peace and hair grease. xoxo